we always want things we cant get

After years of trying. moving around the bushes. tearing my scalp ..several times. laughing at every silly
joke. Bearing every tantrum. spending loads of hard earned money of my pop.....

Being there when she needed, helping her out everytime she just asked, giving her a shoulder to cry
loving her with all my heart...

Depressed , angered , frustrated when she wont respond.. pacifying her even for the things she did
wrong, jealous of every boy-acquintance of her..

One rainy day she said ...." U have me".....a voice echoed in my mind (" Ohh my God !!!!! i dont Love her").

Its often is the case wid me nd the human race as in general " we always want things we can't get"

Now what happens when U finally get what you've wished for... you are so prone to running after ,ploting
schemes....that you just dont need it anymore when u finally get it.

so speak to yourself " Do you really want what your running after?". whether is it worth running after?

"Its like a dog running after a car, it doesnt know what it would do when it catches the car".

I pictured her as the most beautifull nd intresting thing in the world. so i should have her ...Thats EGO
speaking people....

No i find every fault i can imagine in her. Once i had her things get a bit what can i say "Boring". cliche...

"
Someone told me love will all save us.
But how can that be, look what love gave us.
A world full of killing, and blood-spilling
That world never came


Now that the world isn't ending, it's love that I'm sending to you.
It isn't the love of a hero, and that's why I fear it wont do.

"

So how do you know when you truely love someone....
well i cant tell you coz i haven't been in love.

But never force something on yourself try not be in the FOSLA group.
These things are mutual either you connect bothways or none.
Everything has a timing, so in the process of trying too hard you ruin everything else.

By the way I broke up with her next day.

" All good things must end , for better things to begin"........

PHONY

INVITATION:
All final year students are requested to be present at the school hall at 9.30 am for their farewell ceremony.

so here comes the final day at school,those years of regorous torture,humiliation..been bullied around
corridors ..insulted ,beaten.......are finally over.

I really liked the idea still i had to go there one final time to cry goodbyes...that killed me!.

I won't go,still two of the greatest fools in the school's history( "MY best friends") took me with them.
They thought it was their last opportunity to hit on the girls( which as a matter of fact they have been trying
since the day they joined the school).

My entry cudn't have been scarier,i was greeted with tilaks and garlands..with girls showering flower
on my way to the hall. ( what am i,a maharaja or something???)

They finally as we all were seated the singing and dancing began. IT killed me. The dances were quite
funny though..no coordination,no practice they danced as if enjoying at their brother's marriage in
baraat nd all...such lousy people...

There was this play i liked.but i found drooping heads on my shoulders . everyone were enjoying their
afternoon nap.

Then began the stupidest part,the Games. I felt like puking every moment of it. Dancing chairs...common
those are for girls..DUMB CHARADES.....for obvious reasons dumb guys......nd the torture went on endlessly
.. I puked twice.,

Finally as i was about to leave,the Dj came on,,,nd more dirty dancing...
Everyone was so happy,i cudn't figure out why?
The music was bad ,it was hot and sweaty..all so crowded nd all..
I puked again.

we ate .IT sucked the food.Then happiest moment of the day, the life...final gudbye.
But no...they have to spoil that one also for me..god it was a miserable day.
All of a sudden there were flashes,its taking pics time.....
I can't understand why people need photos to remind themselves how pretty the once looked or
groups of chimps they once called friends.


I forgot to tell u at first,i was kicked out of school 2 weeks back for slapping my teacher in class.
I didn't like the mole in his face. what did i do wrong??
I mean all throughout life they taught me to be Honest,when finally i showed them,they sacked me,
such dishonest and PHONY people.

You Give Love a bad Name

one perfect Valentine's Day ....A classic propose:
Guy bending on his knees " I Love You". . Girl " So do i"....now here comes the shiv sainiks....." I now pronounce You Man and Wife"...but waityou can't kiss the bride here its against hindu laws.
want a free wedding no money in pockets..go out with the girl on valentine's day..you just need to worry about the treat..rest the shiv sainiks will take care..
IF not,with a wallet , the wristwatch,the expensive clothes....tie a rakhi along...trust me rakhi from your gf will save you from them.,,savvy that.
Got no girlfriend..no probs dude lets smoke and drink it off..i will be your commiserate.Got ditched,you deserve better..come lets celebrate ...
I dont think you need a special occasion to Love someone,i dont feel giving roses and giftsare needed on a perticular day to express your mate that you love her more than anything inthe world.
I see people searching for someone on this day,to seal the deal...do be committed ....all bulshit.I see girls walking apprehencively on the roadways..scared someone will pop up from the bushesor trees and say they love them and on a valentine's day to be their valentine.
I am not against valentine's day...hell i love it..still instead of love i find despiration in the eyes..I see around people trying to SHOW LOVE.
No matter how many times you have said the L.word to your gf..still valentine's day gives them theauthority to put that kick on your back saying "you lazy dog make me feel special".
you walk alone people say "hmmmm meeting someone"....you come back alone " poor creature no one for him".
I personally feel its a day to be celebrated, do all you want to spread love...still at the end of the daycome back call your folks and tell them you love them..